So we have made our first step in this transition. We are no longer staying at our house, but staying with a friend. But, alas our poor cat is alone at the house. This breaks our hearts as we are at a loss of what to do. We trust that the Lord is working, and is providing a place.
Its strange as we were acknowledged today in Chapel, I stood there and thought, I should be feeling, I should be crying or showing emotions. Why am I not? As many in the military community know PCSing is hard, and there is a defense mechanism that goes up a little bit before you move, and while moving. It serves to protect the heart from hurting. This is a challenge in the ministry to keep feeling when so many people come in and out of your life. Thank the Lord we still feel; but this is different. Its different being the one that stays and others move, but moving instead of others is a whole other feeling.
Tonight we have a farewell at the chapel. I am nervous about it, and don't know what to expect. So, Lord this is me going with an open heart and giving your praise for whatever happens. I don't like surprises, so this is a bit tough. All I know is I need to wear a cute outfit that I want to be posted in photos and that I will want to look at for years to come.
Praise the Lord I believe we found a home for our cat. That has been the biggest heart ache for both Dan and I. Someone contacted me last night and said they wanted the cat. Ugh, my heart....
Hurts so much that I am overwhelmed.
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