Sunday, December 14, 2014


When I say the word Christmas what thought or feeling immediately come to mind. How do we recapture the essence, wonder and  stillness of Christmas.

It might just be my season of life now as I prepare for the next season, but this Christmas I am experiencing something different. Does it have to be just a season I am in and  dismiss it as that? Or can we keep it throughout the seasons of life; the wonder of it all.  I think about what its like as a child to experience Christmas and see that babies face, the simpler time. Are those kids not prideful and scarred like us as adults? simple beauty.  What happens between that time and now, or even as a teenager. What changes? The hurt, the pride the greed. How do we guard against it?
I think as next year we will have our child, and what that will be like. Will she see the beauty and wonder of Christmas? Will she see her Saviour or will she see mom and dad stressed out by all the activities and things to do.

I think in the midst of the holiday, we lose the wonder, we lose something in the midst of serving. The wonder requires us to BE STILL. Being still requires us to wonder. I think they go hand in hand.

Being still, what does that look like in Christmas? Can we even achieve it? Where can we recapture the time?
In the stillness, we rediscover EMMAUNUEL. GOD WITH US! 

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Best things in life are not things!

Monday, March 3, 2014

The whole30 a whole new you

For those of you that know, and for those of you who don't. Dan and I completed a program called a Whole30. 30 days with no sugar, wheat, and dairy.

Below is a note I put in the Facebook group on our journey.

Well, I just finished my first whole30. I dare say, I can never go back to where I was before. Literally. I am a type 1 diabetic with an insulin pump. I was up to 120 units of insulin a day, and my numbers were so crazy. I am proud to say, that I am now at 60 units total. I don't give myself any insulin for meals, and rarely have high sugars. 

Also, my thyroid levels are good, meaning my medicine is working and I am feeling great. This 30 day program really have given me my life back. I didn't even realise I was trapped in a sickly body... addicted to sugar, and made so many excuses. I have lost 15 pounds, and many more inches.

My energy is up, and I am much more productive. I have done so much research now on food, and such that I can never go back to where I was.

I ended the program with a intestinal parasite that took me into a tale spin of pain. 6 days of pain. when healed, I was afraid to eat fearing that pain would return so I got TERRIBLE TERRIBLE hunger pains. I mean so much so that it made me vomit to get relief! Crazy. Now that I have meds, and resuming slowly the food, (paleo program) I am struck with a few thoughts. Why is it that I never knew hunger before? It makes me think of all those around the world that face that on a moment to moment basis. I am so sad about that, that as an Americian society are so inundated with so much food that most of us don't know hunger. This could just me my take.

Anyhow, I am so grateful for the Whole 30. Its has changed my dependance on food, and my relationship with food. I now feel like myself again only improved!